'Conflating Planes And Stylised Realities No.2' 'unexpection'

unexpection *

a time of change impermanence and egress
one inward gaze resources the new from the old

a dark recess in regression and greater depth
in seeming endless distress unexpection is shown

planes of reality they bend they pull and digress
enjoy the daily mundane while breaking its hold

closed systems deny reality’s width and depth
free-fall leaves everything open grasps the unknown

i sink and push four ounces of air to the void
i withdraw i turn and sink i return to the sun

i am sunk i push knowing i am knowingly buoyed
no exit no return bring it on again bring it on

Drawing: "Conflating Planes & Stylised Realities 2" © john william brown 05-06 November 2016 - Poem: "unexpection" from Part 19 "Knowing Your Place" Italian Journal © john william brown 05-06 November 2016

unexpection  *

My own created word: “unexpection” is correct.  It concerns a state of unexpectedness in this moment.  To me, the words un-expectation and unexpectedness do not suffice in immediacy.  To my mind, “to expect” is immediate, whereas, “expectation” projects into some vague future.  Hence, a state of “unexpection” is of the immediate.  © john william brown 2016.

'Conflating Planes And Stylised Realities No.1' 'confidence'

confidence

who was it said “through despair we find salvation”?

a woman i think and a fascist so i was told

true or not so the quote still pushes through

as i salvage a find of self i have never known

a certain confidence a quiet reformation

all i admire in my self both retiring and bold

past heroines heroes brother and mother too

turn in this shadow attached to me yet alone

i stalk a provincial city in autumnal sun

my first tai chi teacher sticks with me in my pace

i sink into his words one evening long gone

“in chinese tai chi ‘confidence’ is knowing-your-place”

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drawing 'Conflating Planes & Stylised Realities No.1'
© john william brown 03-04 November 2016
(Pen & Ink on Fabriano 200g/m2 A4)

poem 'confidence'  © john william brown 03-04 November 2016